SHORT

She cried like a puppy
Dog, base and whining yelp of love--
Animal and unaccustomed to human propriety;
"Oh Jesus, no no no no no..."
I woke up to her because of that

And it was like
Like I stepped on her paw
When she saw me--

And me, they propped me up
And I couldn't see, the (white) tubes
Around me stifled my vision

And the emmense effort of lifting my head
From my shoulder, was for her
Mother, ignore

These crass bald veins and blood red eyes,
(She said
They were so red
She couldn't even see my pupils).

They gutted my stomach and I yelled at them for it:
"You cheated me, You cheated me!"
(such a teenager)

And when I woke up a few days later, I looked in the mirror
Remembered my mother, and tried
To wash off the blood from my thin blue fabric

Stained like I stained her with my brutal apathy

(Forgive me, Lylia)